Never could I have imagined being so blessed and loved. The smiling faces as I walk in the room. The unconditional love. Endless hugs and kisses.... no judging, just understanding.
There is no way to describe this feeling. Sometimes completely helpless... hopeless...heartless. Other times totally in love, happy, accepted.
I love you.... my blood, my life... JT and Joshua.
Friday 9 March 2012
Thursday 8 March 2012
No Hope....
I like it here. In the dark. Where no one can see the sadness. It's easy to fake light. Fake a smile, fake a laugh... pretend that you dont care.
Hiding in darkness is better than being judged in light. Under the scrutiny of those around you, who pretend that they know how you feel.
Pity..... compassion... understanding... it's all bullshit. No one really cares what you're going through. Sure they listen, and they give advice, but as soon as they step out the front door, they forget what you just talked about. They start thinking about their own problems, about their own happiness.. try so hard not to be like you. The pathetic one who always needs to be reassured that she's needed, wanted, loved....LOVE.... i hate the word.
There is no hope for the damned.
Hiding in darkness is better than being judged in light. Under the scrutiny of those around you, who pretend that they know how you feel.
Pity..... compassion... understanding... it's all bullshit. No one really cares what you're going through. Sure they listen, and they give advice, but as soon as they step out the front door, they forget what you just talked about. They start thinking about their own problems, about their own happiness.. try so hard not to be like you. The pathetic one who always needs to be reassured that she's needed, wanted, loved....LOVE.... i hate the word.
There is no hope for the damned.
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